Yeahhhhhhhhhh, I love the stuff.
Big surprise, right?
I don’t really remember when it began to take such a high place in the hierarchy of my life. I do remember being about 10-11 and eating so much pizza that I would go into the living room and do jumping jacks so I could go back and eat more feeling bloated. I also remember getting chubby in fifth grade, which would be about the same time. That is also the time that puberty hit. I don’t remember ever having a ‘normal’ relationship with food.
Ironically, despite my size and love of food….I can’t cook it, not very well at all. I’m originally from eastern Kentucky and, well, we’re not exactly world renown for our diverse and healthy palates. Yes, I LOVE, heavy carbs. Give me Mac-n-Cheese and a fork and I will literally eat until I am miserable. Gravy and Biscuits, oh yeahhhhh. Mashed potatoes, mmmmmm. Heavily buttered dinner rolls, fried chicken, yes please. And yeah, there is the occasional vegetable: Green Beans, with a nice hunk of bacon, corn on the cob, slathered in butter. Oh, and chicken n dumplins!
Now, there are two problems with me and this palate: #1 Where is there anything healthy in there, because I sure did NOT see it. #2 I can’t even cook THAT stuff! I have always worked full-time since I was 15 years old, and when I was older, I worked even more hours. Until about 1998, I worked in the fast food industry, so I just often ate at work. After then I was a working, married mother of one going to school. Not really much time for food prep in there. So, we often picked up dinner somewhere. I am also very bad for just eating one meal a day, hoarding up calories until close to the end of the day and then…it’s on. I did learn to cook a few staples: spaghetti with meat sauce, eggs, hot dogs, frozen dinners, etc.
Fast forward a few years and life changes, no longer married, shared custody, working 50 hours a week at a rather low income. I’ve quit going to restaurants a few years ago due to the expense. I do, perhaps every couple of months, go to McDonald’s after a particularly trying day and eat a couple of their dollar chicken sandwiches. Even that is a gas-inducing, stomach cramping splurge though.
Thus, I had fallen into the habit of eating things like pizza rolls for lunch and box mac and cheese for dinner, or loaded baked potatoes. Being very busy still makes food prep difficult. Oh, and I love, Love, LOVE canned Coca Cola, especially in crushed ice. The Coke, does NOT love my teeth though and despite the tanking economy, has continued to rise the price of their product. Bye Coke! (I do drink one every other Friday at card-night with my friends).
So, when I started this back in September, I spoke with T, the personal trainer, about food habits and he explained to me that it would be best to eat something several times a day instead of my Atilla the Hun attack at night. So, I dropped the pizza rolls and etc and have been eating a turkey sandwich with 8 pringles low fat chips for breakfast, the same for lunch. At dinner I was still making the mac and cheese. It was about 650 calories (all carbs and fat), but it was easy to make, easy to count, tasty, and CHEAP.
So, yeah, I’ve pretty much been eating that for about three months now, give or take a few things on a few days. I did wallow in the carbheaven of Thanksgiving too. What’s happened is that I’ve gotten tired of turkey and sandwiches and macaroni and cheese, took three months, but I’ve gotten tired.
I’ve started experimenting with food and will be posting about them soon. I’ve never been experimental with food, afraid that I wouldn’t like it, that I’d fail. I really don’t know what has changed about my willingness in this area, but I’m grateful something has changed.